Ripping from deviantART + college apps

So I've been ripped from my dA account on flikr and even on here! =\ I never really thought my images would be wanted enough to download and display elsewhere. Now that it's happened I feel like I've been jiffed. I try so hard to make my images top notch and I just hate to see people take them and without a second thought download them. Sometimes I wish I'd never stumbled across deviantART and the internet. :(

College applications are super stressful. I found out yesterday that a letter of recommendation didn't arrive for one of my schools so I'm not eligible for scholarship from them. So it's like my entire 65 dollar application doesn't matter because I can't go to a school that doesn't offer me SOMETHING. I'm so mad I can't even think. I get all my stuff in on time and someone else doesn't so I get punished for it. I just feel like everything I do doesn't matter. There's so much against me. I wonder if I should have just stayed in Alabama and became another lawyer instead of pursuing this. I love photography so much I can't imagine my life without it but it's so hard. I have nobody to talk to sometimes. Christian doesn't want a relationship but when we talk it's like we're still together and it confuses me and depresses me. I feel as if I'm destined to just sit here in love and alone.

I promise I'll update next time with less depressing details of my life. Lol.